I find myself fluctuating between feeling indifferent to having full-on murderous anger. I’m happy to soon get boards over with, but I’m dreading the action of getting it done. A part of me wants to be left alone this weekend to process my feelings and do my final study reviews. However, there is also a part of me that says “F**k this test! I’m not reading or doing another damn thing and it’s time to get mutha-truckin TURNT UP!”
Alas, I abandon my wild impulses and quietly return to studying; meanwhile, I have occasional thoughts of eating a salty gluten-filled soft jumbo pretzel since I’m now on day 26 without eating sugar or gluten. Hmm, perhaps that’s partially why I want to murder someone too!
A.) In the middle of studying
B.) Trying to rush and get somewhere
C.) Have 99 problems but a bitch ain’t one!
Hahaha! Now, I’m such a nice sucker that I usually indulge people to a certain degree. However, don’t you sometimes wish you can just tell folks to “Shut-up” point blank without them getting all butt-hurt?? Maybe not say it that harsh, but I do think good boundary setting is essential if you ever want to get sh*t done!
It took everything I had to fight back laughing while I was still in the room:
Even now, I’m still cracking up from the fact someone actually said that while a clinician’s finger was still examining the patient’s bumhole. The patient was serious about the comment, but definitely meant it for some humor too. I’m telling you folks, this stuff is too good to make up!
It’s moments like these where being in clinic and working with patients reminds me why I love my job!
This isn’t pessimism folks…it’s real life! I think we all can relate to having days where you just feel utterly defeated in your efforts. Some days can even seem futile. Whether people want to admit it or not, med school definitely consists of days like that (at least for me it is).
What motivates me to keep going? Ha! I guess ultimately I know failure is NOT an option. I also don’t try to fight my feelings when they hit. If I have to go cry and yell that sh*t out for a few minutes, then I do. I also find it helpful to exercise or either call a friend who I know won’t say cliche inspirational b.s. to me to make me feel better, but actually listen and let me vent.
We all have good and bad days…one isn’t necessarily better or worse than the other since both are important to cultivating who we are.
Thanks dudes but sometimes too many tips and advice are NOT helpful and forces me to say…
And now here’s my own advice that I’m following to prepare for boards: Ignore everyone and just do YOU!
At the end of the day, you know yourself best and what works well. It’s easy to allow everybody else’s panic, anxiety, thoughts and advice to overwhelm you because I almost started to let it affect me too.
Now when a friend asks me if I want his/her advice or recommendations about boards I simply say: “No thank you!” 🙂
Son-of-a-biscuit eater!!I thought I finally kicked my addiction to coffee and caffeine, but alas that damn monkey on my back is being a tougher pusher-man than before.
Despite already being burnt out prior to this point, the combination of taking research classes, doing a clinic shift, studying for boards, apartment hunting, and just trying to take care of myself (as well as others) has more than taken its toll. And the screwed up part of this is it’s the Summer! This is what happens when you aim to complete two degrees and an additional certificate program in 4 years!
Am I crazy? You bet!
Do I like the challenge and torturing myself this way? I imagine probably so on a subconscious level 😉
What’s the next step? For you to quit sitting here and reading this and go find me a damn coffee IV! 🙂
Haha, sorry for that last comment…that was the “monkey on my back” talking. You guys know I loovvveee you!
Hahaha! After two years of learning huge volumes of medical information (pieces of info, really) it’s now time to use the next two years to put it all together. I’ll admit, I’m a bit scared by it all, but that’s normal and par for the course. No worries though, I’m being supervised to ensure no lives are in immediate danger…I hope!
If something goes wrong, I’m sure you’ll see my trial on TV 😉