Fitness Challenges: Necessary Evils!

Well folks, I survived another quarter of midterms

What’s next? Well,  I decided to commit to a month of Crossfit. Yea, I caved in to join the paleo-diet, fitness-crazed fanatics to liven up my exercise routine (or lack there of). Living Social finally made me an offer I couldn’t refuse 😉

I realized that typical exercise routines bore me! When I’m bored, then I just won’t do them. This happens more so when I’m stressed and tired. So I came up with the idea to make myself do a new fitness challenge each month. If I commit to one fitness challenge for 30 days, it’ll keep things interesting, be short enough time for me to not get lazy, and expose me to differ movements that can keep my body always guessing, thus, encouraging more muscle tone to develop.

I challenge you all to pick your own fitness challenge for this month. Set a 30 day exercise challenge and commit! You don’t necessarily have to do it everyday, but decide on a routine (2x/week, 3x/week, etc.) and see what happens. See what benefits and difficulties may arise for you. The best advice that has worked for me is to PREPARE for it. Preparation can make all the difference in achieving success!

I leave you with these final words…

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My default response when friends ask me “how’s life treating you?”

This isn’t pessimism folks…it’s real life! I think we all can relate to having days where you just feel utterly defeated in your efforts. Some days can even seem futile. Whether people want to admit it or not, med school definitely consists of days like that (at least for me it is).

What motivates me to keep going? Ha! I guess ultimately I know failure is NOT an option. I also don’t try to fight my feelings when they hit. If I have to go cry and yell that sh*t out for a few minutes, then I do. I also find it helpful to exercise or either call a friend who I know won’t say cliche inspirational b.s. to me to make me feel better, but actually listen and let me vent.

We all have good and bad days…one isn’t necessarily better or worse than the other since both are important to cultivating who we are.

My thoughts about the first GPA…

I thought I’d feel like this…

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But it actually played out more like this…

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I was blessed to pass my GPA-1, but I still had this cathartic release of emotion. I cried! I didn’t cry from happiness…I cried because I’ve finally hit this limit of being sick and tired of being sick and tired. Tired of being tried and tested, critiqued, judged, and constantly readjusting my expectations to accommodate the burn-out. It SUCKS…it really does. I even got pissed for NOT being perfect. I know…that sounds ridiculous!! But hey, that is definitely how I felt. I couldn’t get passed my own disappointment in not meeting my OWN expectations for myself that it completely masked the true victory. And you know what, I know I wasn’t the only one who may have struggled with mixed emotions (once again). So I called my momma because quite frankly I didn’t know who else would understand the paradox of me not being happy in that moment. And this is what her words did for my soul…

I want to give a BIG SHOUT OUT to all the awesome, amazing MOMMAS!!! THANK YOU!!

That phone call gave me the encouragement and love that I needed to hear so I could move on and celebrate my achievement. She doesn’t completely understand what I’m going through, but to hear her express her admiration for me and the people who choose this path was beautiful! In the midst of taking all these tests, pulling 10-12hr days, and constantly feeling like you don’t know what you’re doing and you’re not good enough…it helps to know there are people who see you and appreciate the sacrifice you make to protect them and help heal them. THANK YOU!!! Your belief gives me the strength to do the things that most people wouldn’t want to do. And while my colleagues and I are in the thick of it now…our day is coming.

So congratulations to everyone who successfully made it through their first GPA and took that GIANT leap closer to becoming a practitioner!! You are amazing and I’m glad I can share this journey with you!

And for those who did not receive a passing grade this first time around, please don’t despair! YOU DID NOT FAIL! Think about how much you have learned this year to make it to this point. That in itself is a SUCCESS! My heart feels for you because I know you are beyond exhausted and the idea of repeating this damn thing can be very disheartening. I BELIEVE IN YOU!! Believe in yourself! You are more than GOOD and SMART enough, and you will make it through this hurdle. We didn’t all come this far for anyone to get let behind. I plan to see ALL of us cross that finish line and be the great doctors we are destined to become.

We chose are very difficult and challenging road. There will be road bumps and blocks along the way. Often times, we feel segregated like nobody truly understands how much we are hurting and struggling to make this dream happen. But it won’t always be like this. Cry, scream, kick, and yell…and know you are stronger for it!

Now, who wants a drink? Hey! Wine has antioxidants that are good for you!!!

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