Hello Folks! My apologies for my long absence. I blame life! And, the sobering fact that I can no longer multitask like I used to. Does anyone else feel the same struggle?
So let’s quickly bring y’all up to speed. Here’s what happened in the last 1.5yrs:
1.) Final year of med school: Rocky vs. The Russian
2.) Graduation Day- June 28, 2015
3.) Studied ….
and Completed Medical Board Licensing Exams
4.) Painfully confronted by the reality of being a new grad AGAIN:
5.) Paying bills without the help of loans and grants….the struggle is REAL:
Well folks, I survived another quarter of midterms
What’s next? Well, I decided to commit to a month of Crossfit. Yea, I caved in to join the paleo-diet, fitness-crazed fanatics to liven up my exercise routine (or lack there of). Living Social finally made me an offer I couldn’t refuse 😉
I realized that typical exercise routines bore me! When I’m bored, then I just won’t do them. This happens more so when I’m stressed and tired. So I came up with the idea to make myself do a new fitness challenge each month. If I commit to one fitness challenge for 30 days, it’ll keep things interesting, be short enough time for me to not get lazy, and expose me to differ movements that can keep my body always guessing, thus, encouraging more muscle tone to develop.
I challenge you all to pick your own fitness challenge for this month. Set a 30 day exercise challenge and commit! You don’t necessarily have to do it everyday, but decide on a routine (2x/week, 3x/week, etc.) and see what happens. See what benefits and difficulties may arise for you. The best advice that has worked for me is to PREPARE for it. Preparation can make all the difference in achieving success!
I leave you with these final words…
Test begins and several questions in:
Turning point during test:
Did I mention I have to have my whole apartment packed and moved in 36hrs?
Wine and packing…haha, that can’t be a good combination!
Great job to all the peeps who suffered through boards today! Go have celebratory drinks for me and enjoy the rest of your Summer!!
I find myself fluctuating between feeling indifferent to having full-on murderous anger. I’m happy to soon get boards over with, but I’m dreading the action of getting it done. A part of me wants to be left alone this weekend to process my feelings and do my final study reviews. However, there is also a part of me that says “F**k this test! I’m not reading or doing another damn thing and it’s time to get mutha-truckin TURNT UP!”
Alas, I abandon my wild impulses and quietly return to studying; meanwhile, I have occasional thoughts of eating a salty gluten-filled soft jumbo pretzel since I’m now on day 26 without eating sugar or gluten. Hmm, perhaps that’s partially why I want to murder someone too!
This isn’t pessimism folks…it’s real life! I think we all can relate to having days where you just feel utterly defeated in your efforts. Some days can even seem futile. Whether people want to admit it or not, med school definitely consists of days like that (at least for me it is).
What motivates me to keep going? Ha! I guess ultimately I know failure is NOT an option. I also don’t try to fight my feelings when they hit. If I have to go cry and yell that sh*t out for a few minutes, then I do. I also find it helpful to exercise or either call a friend who I know won’t say cliche inspirational b.s. to me to make me feel better, but actually listen and let me vent.
We all have good and bad days…one isn’t necessarily better or worse than the other since both are important to cultivating who we are.
However, this is what it really is
Here’s to being 50% a doctor! And my advice for moving forward?
Before getting sick, my days already felt like I’ve hit rock bottom…
MSOM/Chinese med students:
In general, the Chinese medicine students are just a happy, sweet, calm and relaxed bunch! Even when they are stressed they are still smiling, happy, chatting and drinking tea!
While ND students think: “Tea?!! Who has time to sip tea?! Give me the largest effin coffee you got so I can crank out hours of cramming! You want to chat? Let’s chat about the pathophysiology of XYZ and what could be possible test questions.”
My impression of ND Students: Always stressing, rushing, panicking, bitching, moaning, cranky, and usually depressed. Sigh…sometimes I wonder why did I pick the “dark side”, haha. Maybe secretly…I kinda like it 😉